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Because of You - Kelly Clarkson

I remember my former boss when one time we got a chance to chat. It was just a very short conversation but it was so full of emotions. He is almost at his retireable age but we talked about his childhood experience with his nanny. He was left with this nanny or "yaya" while his parents are at work. He said, there he was molested. He was traumatized at the very early age of 7 or 8.

I happen to know someone who was a victim of the same fate. She was still very young when it happened to her -she has not even reached the age of 4. She was just surrounded by so much illegal activities: drugs, gambling, alcohol. That was the environment she grew up with. I paid close attention to her story because as a woman myself, I also have nieces who are at the same vulnerable age and might end up on the same plight. This is just too much to bear but I admired her strength.

Instead of hating her parents for raising her up in a well-groomed environment, she protects them. She wouldn't even tell them about this bad event in her life. I would say, her parents would have been her source of strength but she kept the incident from them. I was told to keep this a secret... alright, I'll stop writing now. I just want to express my thoughts on the topic.

By the way, my niece, Ke lin sung loves this song, although I don't think she understands its meaning. I just hope she likes the song for the music, not as a statement towards her parents.

Here is the lyrics:
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you


Because of you by Kelly Clarkson - Kelly Clarkson

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