Just Once - James Ingram

We have decisions in life that has to be made at an instant. A moment where you don't even have a minute to think about it. We decide then regret later. We decide then rejoice with the outcome of our decisions. However, those moments we feel so defeated are the times when we made the final decision and worst, you go back to that time and think that you could have reached a better decision if given an ample time.

The reality is? We really don't have ample time to decide expecially when there are pressing issues and people surrounding us.

I have always regret my bad decisions and ask myself: "what if?"

One such decision is when I left for Manila. It was a spur of the moment decision and an assurance was also present that everything would be alright. But it wasn't.
It turned out, everything is not all right or not at all right. Well, at least not everything went wrong. There are a few things that I wish I could go back to.
Those things I can still revive, I slowly and painstakingly complete it. I rejoined my family, I rejoined my community, I gained back my faith, I am on the way of
finishing the piece which I think would complete me - my law school.

Deep within me, I know this is what I want although there are pressing issues at the moment, I think of quitting or yield a bit. But I have to move on and walk every inch. It is my only aspiration, it is my only desire, it is what I call my peak!

These are the times when I have ample time, yet, I feel like giving up. Sometimes I wish, seeing the result of my decision is as easy as ABC and as fast as lighting.
Life is such a mystery isn't it? The time that you ask for more time, you don't have it. When you are given enough time, somethings have started to tear out, not the way as planned, we wish for it to end immediately.

While I am writing this, I am reminded of the song which has an introduction of: "I did my best but I guess my best isn't good enough"

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Here is the lyrics of the song Just Once by James Ingram

I did my best, but I guess my best wasn't good enough
'cause here we are back where we were before
seems nothing ever changes
we're back to being strangers
wondering if we ought to stay or head on out the door

Just once
can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
why we never last for very long
what are we doing wrong.
just once
can't we find a way to finally make it right
to make the magic last for more than just one night
if we could just get to it
I know we could break through it.
Ohh ohhh

I gave my heart
but I think my heart may have been too much
'cause lord knows we're not getting anywhere
seems we're always blowing
whatever we've got going
and it seems at times with all we've got
we haven't got a prayer....

Just once
can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
why the good times never last for long,
where are we going wrong
just once...
can't we find a way to finally make it right
to make the magic last for more than just one night
i know we could break through it
if we could just get to it

(Bridge)
Just once, I want to understand.....
why it always comes back to goodbye;
why can't we get ourselves in hand
and admit to one another
we're no good without each other
take the best and make it better
find a way to stay together

Just once, can't we find a way to finally make it right...Ohhhh
to make the magic last for more than just one night
i know we could break through it
if we could just get to it

Just Once
Ohhhh, we can get to it
Just Once