This is the only song I know that would remind me of a person I lost in the past. For the past few nights, I've been dreaming about her, thinking about her and my vivid thoughts are sometimes just about her -Jenny, my cousin.

I've lost her for seventeen (17) years now. She could have been a very pretty lady as she was before. Who knows, she might have her own family already. Too bad and too sad, this world can no longer witness that because she is gone ahead of us all.


Lyrics | Taylor Dayne lyrics - Love Will Lead You Back lyrics

I have no more means to verify with her, her story behind this song. But one thing came true: love leads her back. I only knew her deeply for about two weeks but I spent so many hours and nights with her, most especially when she was sick. We ate in her room together, laugh together, tell stories and all that friends would do together. It was one of my happiest moments but also the most painful part of my life. I was just trying to be firm because I know, she is above there, watching over us, praying for us even.

Let me share with you a poem my mom made when Jenny passed away.

I'LL BE BACK (1991)
Wipe the tears in your eyes dearest ones
i'm not dead as you see me dead
my spirit lives and have gone ahead
to the Kingdom of God and eternal rest

Grieve not my passing away from this world
pilgrims all we pass this way once
some chose the long and torturous roads
my route was short & easy as a dance

Fourteen years you had me in your midst
you've seen me laugh & dance & sing
if you see me now so still and unmoving
it's not because I am dead rather that I'm resting

For my journey through this earth though short and easy
still my heart never rests, my spirit weary
til I rest in His bossom
my God, the Almighty

But I'll be back dearest ones, I'll be back
You'll see me in your memories where I live on
I'll be in your midst in joy and fun
In spirit, I'll be back dearest ones.

-a dew
(copied with permission)

I miss you Jenny!

This is another song by Joey Albert. This is the song for the very best sister in the world... I couldn't have made some good breaks in my life without her.


Lyrics | Point Of View lyrics

Back in our younger years, we have loved Joey Albert and her songs. By "we", I mean my sister and me. There are times we just hum the song or actually sing them. We shared a lot of things: we washed clothes, take a bath together (we fill up the pale with water, use the dipper then just shower ourselves with it), we press our uniforms, we tickle each other before we go to sleep amd I don't recall any event where we hurt each other (I mean physically, even emotionally). I don't think I was ever envious about my big sister. We are completely different: she's tall, my mom call me plump; she's skinny, I'm chubby; she's friendly, I'm not - but we're both inteligent and wise (self-professed again!).

We were together most of our lives and we tell each other our problems. There are a lot of things I can tell her but not to anyone else. Now that we're older, before we both make decisions, we always ask for each others' point of view on things. That's the common thing between us. She tells me her problems, her opinion about things, our family problems, work relations and others. In return, I tell her what I think, what should have been and be done. She also knows my frustrations and gives me comforting words.

I'm glad I have the most wonderful sister of all. I love her so -so much that I love her kids as my own. (Well, I love all of my nephews and my nieces.) She has done a lot of things for me and for our family. Oh, and did I mention she's my best drinkin' buddy? Drinking is not the same when we don't do it together. We drink, we sing, we laugh, we tell stories and we have so much fun together... and that's until now... and I hope forever!

The song says: "We may have gone our diff'rent ways, But since we are the kind of friends who'll always stay no matter what the pain..."

That's my big sis! Isn't the world a wonderful place if you have someone you can talk to anything under the sun?

This is a story why I have always loved my best friend...

There I was in the government office I used to go to. There were a lot of things I couldn't forget in that office and one of them is when I was introduced to this song "By Heart". It was 2005. I was looking for a good song, you know me, music is my life! Then there was my cousin, who, after scolding me and giving me some pain in the head, asked me to record some songs for her. She said I should chose the songs that are good so I chose the song I fell in love with. One of them is this. I know it was the first time she heard this when I finally gave the copy to her. It didn't even mean anything to her, for all I know (that's why I regretted giving her a copy, wink! Just kidding!)

Alright, in person, I will appear to you as strong, liberal, someone rational and someone who will always have a solution to everything. Well guess what? YOU'RE RIGHT! (haha!) But not when I am left confronted by this stubborn cousin of mine. She'll have me so helpless, so weak, lame and dumb... call me all the equivalents. She just knows where to push the button to tone me down. No one has ever did this and I think no one ever will. Despite this, she's a favorite sister. We had a lot of disagreements, and we still have them, but she is what I told you she is.

She just knows when to execute that 1-2-jab-kinda-manny-pacquiao-punch on me. She kicked me in the retina, blew my cerebrum, poked my hemoglobin (I learned these terms from her). I'll be filing a case by the way, serious physical injuries with an aggravating circumstance of abuse to minor -haha!)

Then I provided a space for myself. I left for Manila to work, but after a couple of years being alone, I missed her. When she decided to work there too, I went back to the province. I missed her all the more. One thing remained: She is still my very best cousin -noone could replace. Yeah, we're worlds apart, but she is here embedded deep in my heart. She is stubborn, but with a great heart; brat but with an open mind; quiet but with a strong faith! And have I told you I love her so dearly? I love her.

I have been out for a while. First off, my paternal grandmother died. While I was reminiscing the events when my "lola" (Filipino word for grandmother) was still alive, I just can't help but remember one of the most tragic deaths that the entertainment and political world had seen. The tragic death of Princess Diana.

I have always admired her, not because she had a fairytale-like wedding but because she is a woman of strength. As a self-professed feminist, Diana or Princess D is really a woman one could admire from the heart. We all know her story and I will always remember her as the most "photographed" personality.

What made this song special to me is the singer. Elton John is a great singer! His voice never fades and when he sang this song to Diana, it was like a fairytale to me. My most-admired woman and my singer-idol were together on a scene albeit one is dead, the other is teary-eyed singing his song.

That's why I will always love music because people would come and go but music will always give us comfort. They bring back memories.

I always love to sing this song and when I do, I always remember Princess D. For the rest of the story of this song, here is Elton John's lyrics:

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

I wonder who else remembers a person when they hear a particular song? If you wouldn't mind, I would truly love to get your story behind your favorite song.

:-) til next entry!