Probably not a lot of people knows this song, not even my closest friends or family but this is a great song. I shouldn't have known about this song if not for this person. She was the first person I approached when I planned to join the school's varsity team. We became close and I even urged her to teach me to smoke (and I failed). Before she'd graduate from UP, she made it to the Military school and four years later, she topped her class. We were even prouder. This song will always remind me of her.

Just a couple of weeks ago, I was watching MTV of Celine Dion and so I remembered all her songs from my college days. I remembered "If I Were You", "I Love You, Goodbye", "Beauty and the Beast" etc. and I recalled how did I ever get to learn about most of THE Celine Dion's songs. Then I remembered my friend, we called her "Cru". Unfortunately, this friend of mine just passed away due to a vehicular accident. That's the reason why I should've been sleeping by now but I'm doing this post.

I've known her as a strong person yet hearing her falling in love with this song made me realize that she is an emotional person after all. Who wouldn't? Read the lyrics and listen to the song at the bottom of this post.

And right now, I can't help thinking about her. I was hoping to see her and talk to her once again during our Homecoming set for tomorrow (December 5 and 6) but I know she really had to rest now. I will try to enjoy the grand celebration tomorrow which we have been planning for a few months now. But it will not be as happy knowing that we lost yet another great person in our midst.

To you and your big heart "Cru"... you're in our hearts!


Lyrics | Water From The Moon lyrics

This is the only song I know that would remind me of a person I lost in the past. For the past few nights, I've been dreaming about her, thinking about her and my vivid thoughts are sometimes just about her -Jenny, my cousin.

I've lost her for seventeen (17) years now. She could have been a very pretty lady as she was before. Who knows, she might have her own family already. Too bad and too sad, this world can no longer witness that because she is gone ahead of us all.


Lyrics | Taylor Dayne lyrics - Love Will Lead You Back lyrics

I have no more means to verify with her, her story behind this song. But one thing came true: love leads her back. I only knew her deeply for about two weeks but I spent so many hours and nights with her, most especially when she was sick. We ate in her room together, laugh together, tell stories and all that friends would do together. It was one of my happiest moments but also the most painful part of my life. I was just trying to be firm because I know, she is above there, watching over us, praying for us even.

Let me share with you a poem my mom made when Jenny passed away.

I'LL BE BACK (1991)
Wipe the tears in your eyes dearest ones
i'm not dead as you see me dead
my spirit lives and have gone ahead
to the Kingdom of God and eternal rest

Grieve not my passing away from this world
pilgrims all we pass this way once
some chose the long and torturous roads
my route was short & easy as a dance

Fourteen years you had me in your midst
you've seen me laugh & dance & sing
if you see me now so still and unmoving
it's not because I am dead rather that I'm resting

For my journey through this earth though short and easy
still my heart never rests, my spirit weary
til I rest in His bossom
my God, the Almighty

But I'll be back dearest ones, I'll be back
You'll see me in your memories where I live on
I'll be in your midst in joy and fun
In spirit, I'll be back dearest ones.

-a dew
(copied with permission)

I miss you Jenny!

This is another song by Joey Albert. This is the song for the very best sister in the world... I couldn't have made some good breaks in my life without her.


Lyrics | Point Of View lyrics

Back in our younger years, we have loved Joey Albert and her songs. By "we", I mean my sister and me. There are times we just hum the song or actually sing them. We shared a lot of things: we washed clothes, take a bath together (we fill up the pale with water, use the dipper then just shower ourselves with it), we press our uniforms, we tickle each other before we go to sleep amd I don't recall any event where we hurt each other (I mean physically, even emotionally). I don't think I was ever envious about my big sister. We are completely different: she's tall, my mom call me plump; she's skinny, I'm chubby; she's friendly, I'm not - but we're both inteligent and wise (self-professed again!).

We were together most of our lives and we tell each other our problems. There are a lot of things I can tell her but not to anyone else. Now that we're older, before we both make decisions, we always ask for each others' point of view on things. That's the common thing between us. She tells me her problems, her opinion about things, our family problems, work relations and others. In return, I tell her what I think, what should have been and be done. She also knows my frustrations and gives me comforting words.

I'm glad I have the most wonderful sister of all. I love her so -so much that I love her kids as my own. (Well, I love all of my nephews and my nieces.) She has done a lot of things for me and for our family. Oh, and did I mention she's my best drinkin' buddy? Drinking is not the same when we don't do it together. We drink, we sing, we laugh, we tell stories and we have so much fun together... and that's until now... and I hope forever!

The song says: "We may have gone our diff'rent ways, But since we are the kind of friends who'll always stay no matter what the pain..."

That's my big sis! Isn't the world a wonderful place if you have someone you can talk to anything under the sun?

This is a story why I have always loved my best friend...

There I was in the government office I used to go to. There were a lot of things I couldn't forget in that office and one of them is when I was introduced to this song "By Heart". It was 2005. I was looking for a good song, you know me, music is my life! Then there was my cousin, who, after scolding me and giving me some pain in the head, asked me to record some songs for her. She said I should chose the songs that are good so I chose the song I fell in love with. One of them is this. I know it was the first time she heard this when I finally gave the copy to her. It didn't even mean anything to her, for all I know (that's why I regretted giving her a copy, wink! Just kidding!)

Alright, in person, I will appear to you as strong, liberal, someone rational and someone who will always have a solution to everything. Well guess what? YOU'RE RIGHT! (haha!) But not when I am left confronted by this stubborn cousin of mine. She'll have me so helpless, so weak, lame and dumb... call me all the equivalents. She just knows where to push the button to tone me down. No one has ever did this and I think no one ever will. Despite this, she's a favorite sister. We had a lot of disagreements, and we still have them, but she is what I told you she is.

She just knows when to execute that 1-2-jab-kinda-manny-pacquiao-punch on me. She kicked me in the retina, blew my cerebrum, poked my hemoglobin (I learned these terms from her). I'll be filing a case by the way, serious physical injuries with an aggravating circumstance of abuse to minor -haha!)

Then I provided a space for myself. I left for Manila to work, but after a couple of years being alone, I missed her. When she decided to work there too, I went back to the province. I missed her all the more. One thing remained: She is still my very best cousin -noone could replace. Yeah, we're worlds apart, but she is here embedded deep in my heart. She is stubborn, but with a great heart; brat but with an open mind; quiet but with a strong faith! And have I told you I love her so dearly? I love her.

I have been out for a while. First off, my paternal grandmother died. While I was reminiscing the events when my "lola" (Filipino word for grandmother) was still alive, I just can't help but remember one of the most tragic deaths that the entertainment and political world had seen. The tragic death of Princess Diana.

I have always admired her, not because she had a fairytale-like wedding but because she is a woman of strength. As a self-professed feminist, Diana or Princess D is really a woman one could admire from the heart. We all know her story and I will always remember her as the most "photographed" personality.

What made this song special to me is the singer. Elton John is a great singer! His voice never fades and when he sang this song to Diana, it was like a fairytale to me. My most-admired woman and my singer-idol were together on a scene albeit one is dead, the other is teary-eyed singing his song.

That's why I will always love music because people would come and go but music will always give us comfort. They bring back memories.

I always love to sing this song and when I do, I always remember Princess D. For the rest of the story of this song, here is Elton John's lyrics:

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

I wonder who else remembers a person when they hear a particular song? If you wouldn't mind, I would truly love to get your story behind your favorite song.

:-) til next entry!

This is our beach in Darigayos, Luna, La Union located North of the Philippines.

Jose Mari Chan Lyrics

From the very title of this song, one could do nothing but agree with its concept. As they say: "Change is the only permanent thing in this world."

This song reminds me so much of my father's siblings (paternal siblings) who were just my age. When we were younger, we got the chance to spend a very long vacation with them. We went to the beach, climbed the Grotto, went fishing, diving and all. We really "moved from place to place". From Pangasinan, then to La Union then to Manila. They were from Tuguegarao, by the way. (All of the places I mentioned, except Manila, are provinces from the North of the country.)

As kids, we truly enjoyed that time together. Now, I was reminded of this song again because we already seldom see each other. We gathered together once in 2006 when their youngest, PJ, got married. Now they are all linving in America albeit the three of them living in different states. We are now living apart from each other but that vacation we spent together in 1989 was so memorable! I am not sure if I can produce photos from that day but it sure is very vivid in my memory.

Through the internet, we still communicate with each other and we get to share our own accomplishments, our heart aches and how we miss the old days. It's always nice to be young, to be like Peter Pan and to always cherish the childishness in our hearts. This song asked: "Have we outgrown our Peter Pan's and wings?" It's a troubling question for me but I want to convince myself that sometimes I see myself as an adult but when bombarded with so much pressure already, I think of a happy thought. I think of my childhood -the good ones of course.

And life is a constant change, oh no!

To Jose Mari Chan: I have always loved this song and the others you've recorded.

My last post was about my best friend. This current song is about my high school friends because they were the ones who welcomed me into high school life and they accompanied me there. Unfortunately, they did not stay long.

I am talking about my big brother (we fondly call him "Bacon") who was in his Senior year when I was a freshman in high school. The three of us, me and my big sister and brother went to the same school although I must admit, I was closer with my brother back then. I had a classmate, maybe I could name her Chu, who became my friend and while I was close to my brother, she also developed this closeness to him. All these happened when we, Chu and I, were in still in the first year level.

The three of us go to church together, and if we had free time, we eat out and talk a lot. We fell in love with this song because we thought about being good friends for life.I learned later on that this song was used in the animated movie: The Land Before Time. I loved the song even more.

But things changed my brother graduated and had to go to college in the city. I began having my own set of friends, she did likewise.

Almost 20 years since then, I still remember our song and when I hear it (which I seldom do this age), I remember Chu.

This is the lyrics and the song:



If We Hold On TogetherDon’t lose your way
With each passing day
You’ve come so far
Don’t throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We’ll dream about the sun
In the dark we’ll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i